Words

Words
By Jae Vel
Between you and me
You have been quiet lately
Showing me glimpses to satisfy the need, barely
To create, that need within me
Maybe, I no longer need you and I am healed?
Tell that to the recurrent dreams or, shall I call them nightmares?
Where your voice reverberates within me, disturbing the peace
No, you have never been silent, just dormant waiting for the opportunity to pounce
To sabotage my well-being, to silence my laughter
You have been waiting in silence for the right moment
Flickering in and out of my daydreams waiting to get a reaction
Well, are you now content?
Here it is, I hear you, I see you, loud and clear
Message received, you never left
You will hound me till my last breath
You: the words bouncing around my mind
You will forever be my companion

9/17/14

(Excerpt from ” pedazos de mi ser” ) 

9/17/14

Jae Vel 

Cuando al fin cree que se ha olvidado; escucha su voz en el vientoCuando piensa que su corazón a vuelto a repararse; se acelera al verlo otra vez

Cuando al fin siente que todo de el se ha borrado; cierra los ojos y nada ha cambiado

Cuando más fuerte piensa que es; se encuentra que por el, débil es….

9/25/14

I was broken when you found me. Pieces of my heart I thought never able to mend are slowly coming together, day by day, month to month, year to year. A slow healing process, I know. I’m not fully healed, I still have twinges of pain

But looking at you and thinking of all we have shared together helps me move in the right direction

I’m in my rightful place walking along this life by your side,

At times, you have unknowingly become my guide, I rely on your love, your strength and most of all 

your faith in us ( excerpt from “Because of you”  by Jae Vel) 

I should be all out of words…

I should be all out of words

by Jae Vel

I should be all out of words by now

I have exhausted so many on my journey

I used the words to cleanse, to heal

I thought the store would deplete

yet,  the words continue to sprint across my mind

some days my fingers can capture the racing words on time

grabbing on with clenched fists as some words fight to hide

while others beg to be set free

round and round from the light of day to the dark of night

I spent so many years of regurgitating the never ending refrain of words that revolve around you

At times losing the true story, the hidden messages to myself within each spilled line

Yes,

I should be all out of words by now…

Boleros y Tequila

Boleros y Tequila

por Jae Vel

 

 Cuando me atacan las emociones del pasado

 Me sostengo en la tierra con tequila y boleros

Me castigo con cada melodía que vuelven abrir las heridas que pensé habían cicatrizado

 

Mi voz llorosa grita la letra al tempo de cada bolero,

Pienso que así al fin derramare todas las lágrimas que llevo dentro

 

El gemido de la guitarra mezclada con el llanto del cantante me demuestra que no estoy sola en mi dolor.

 

¡Ay! esas lagrimas mezcladas con tequila,

que sabor tan amargo llevo en mi boca por tus perrerías

 

Súbele al volumen de esos boleros que quiero ahogarme esta noche en el tequila y las melodías

 

Lloren guitarras lloren, que yo te acompañó,

elevo mi voz vaciando mi ser de todo dolor

 

Ya el frio que dejaste en mi ser vuelve a calentarse con cada trago de tequila y melodías del ayer.

 

Salud a ti, Maldito!

Si quieres, ven aquí conmigo,  

Echémonos un tequilita para olvidar

Ven, a embriagarte con las canciones y licor a ver si asi entiendes lo que tus desprecios me han causado.